InHeaven

I kind of feel uneasy getting old. I’m afraid that time just goes by like this. The days when we cannot meet increase more and more. I hate to feel different from who I was when young. I hate myself for thinking such a thing, and the most detestable thing is the uneasiness that these feelings are so different.

I don’t know what I’m saying but.. having various and complicated feelings.. today. I don’t want to say “I’m living my life” as just breathing. I have to try [work] hard.

Is this…. Is he…? I just can’t… I don’t know… aish weird feeling ;___;